Sunday, September 18, 2005

Seeing A Star

AN IMPRESSION
of a real story


This week I was looking at the sky, seeing stars - "professionally."



When you look at a star in the sky, you do not have to know its name. You just see and behold it. I was thinking that really in order to see the star you had to touch it, experience it, minus the concept that it was a star, not know it so much as such. Naming it would only put a word inbetween you and the star. A veil of sorts instead of building a relationship with "it." Antares, Aldebaran, whatever, is not SEEING the star but thinking about it by naming and comparing it. The beauty of it is itself and you -- not the comparing and numbering and tracking and naming. And so seeing the sky became an action without thought of its own...


Seeing then is its own action, surely

The other evening, a client and I were looking at the sky with intent. Now granted as an astrologer I am supposed to know the sky and "its" stars. So I was just looking, seeing, while people were chatting close by. All of a sudden a light lit up due west. I smiled. I pointed it out to my friends. They saw it too. It was there on command by my mind. It was not a star, I knew that because where I was looking there would be no star. It was not a planet either. They had set already after sunset. It was not an airplane either. It stood still for a long time. Time, yes, or no time, that was the question, as my Chillon Castle -- the time portal -- was close by too, and there was time enough to see it, to look at it, and to "think" about it. The observer and the observed. The castle, the lake, the night, and the mysterious bright light in the sky...



Anyway, without going into what this light was or what it was not, I was sensing that maybe the thing was seeing us too. The observer now was the observed, and I found that very funny because it reminded me of Krishnamurti and his views on consciousness. And all of this happened after I had explained what the shift of dimensions would be about and how we would eventually "get it" and live with it. I thought I can share this impression while Moon and Uranus are trine Venus. The word aka the "name" of the star you will name will never help you to touch the star, because the naming of the star which is astronomical knowledge has conditioned some of us so heavily that the name has become between us and actually seeing what we see, and that is a thing we could think about...

... not to name things instead of just S E E I N G them just for the sake of seeing them. It then dawned on me that the one who sees it and that which he sees are actually not separate once we can drop the conditioning of our minds and pretend we are new each moment. The light that was watching me and my lake that night made that impression clear to me that night. It was not the first time that this mysterious light lit up when I thought of it in that very spot - due West... where the Nordic Blond ETs told me to look for the star -



;-)

Peace - St.Clair

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Conflict - by Krishnamurti

The Man of The Future



what is happening in the world:
Conflict.

Wherever you go there is this terrible conflict - between man and man, between nations and nations, between religions and religions; the conflict between theoreticians and theologians, Christian theologians and non-Christian theologians, the Communists, the totalitarians, and the believers, those who believe in systems, those who are bound by beliefs, those who are completely absorbed by images, religious images, Christian or Hindu, or Buddhist, or your own particular image. So there is this battle going on in the world; tremendous conflict between politicians, between gurus, between every human being outwardly, is struggling, competing, trying to express himself, to identify himself, to become something. Probably more in this country where success is worshipped, where money, position, status becomes all important.

So there is this tremendous conflict going on, between the scientists, between the priests, between every human being on this unfortunate earth. And nobody seems to be able to resolve this conflict—the economic, the social, the political. Nobody seems to care in the struggle, the very destruction of man, of the human being. Nobody has applied their mind and their heart to resolve this problem, this everlasting conflict. Meditation becomes a conflict, to change ourselves becomes a conflict; in any of our relationships, both intimate and otherwise, there is still conflict. Man apparently has lived for many, many million years and has not resolved this problem, after all this time.

There is something radically wrong, that human beings, highly, so-called highly, civilized, with a great deal of knowledge, both psychological and scientific, a great deal of struggle, wars, tears, misery, man has not been able—human beings have not been able to resolve this problem. That is the outward world, what is happening there. And nobody seems to feel it is worthwhile to forget, or drop their own particular beliefs, dogmas, political opinions, theories, conclusions, beliefs, and say, come together and resolve this problem. No politicians will do it, no priest will do it, no psychologist will do it, and the scientists will not do it either. Right?

Do you understand the question? See the gravity of the question? Because we are destroying each other by our very strong beliefs, ideologies, concepts, images. And apparently we are incapable of coming together and resolving this problem. That is, thinking together. Neither the Republicans nor the Democrats, in this country, will drop their particular line of thinking, or their personal ambitions, their craving for power, position. Because it is only when we all work together, feel together, the necessity, the absolute necessity, then perhaps we can resolve the problem. But none of them will do it because it means giving up their personal pride, vanity, position, power.

And the world is preparing for war, appalling violence.

If you disagree with somebody they come and shoot you. All consideration for human feeling, human dignity, human freedom, has gradually been destroyed. So that is the outward world in which we live. I don't think anybody, in his mind, can deny all this.

And inwardly, in our psyche, inside our skin, in our thoughts, in our feelings, we are also in conflict. Always striving to become better, to become something, to achieve success, position, inwardly. This battle is going on inside. And again we don't seem able to resolve it, in spite of the psychologists, in spite of the psychotherapists, in spite of the confessions of Catholics, in spite of all the institutions, organizations that they have in this country.

If you don't feel well you take a pill. If you can't stop smoking, then people will help you to smoke. If you want to talk to god, they will help you. So gradually we are losing our own responsibility, being responsible for our own actions, for our own mind, for our own body. We are gradually, unfortunately, losing everything that matters. This again is true. We are not exaggerating.

So seeing what is happening in the world outside, and also seeing what is happening to each one of us as human beings, to observe this, and seeing the absolute necessity of thinking together. You understand my question? Thinking together. That is, we have conflict, outwardly and inwardly. And unless we resolve this conflict humanity is going to destroy itself.

And since you have been good enough to come here to listen to all this, it becomes very necessary that you and the speaker think together about this conflict. Thinking together implies that both of us put aside, if we are serious, if we know what is happening in the world, if we are responsible for all the things that human beings have done, and feel the necessity of bringing about a radical change in the human psyche, because society cannot be changed unless each human being changes.

Seeing all that, we must think together. I do not know if you have observed how difficult it is that two people can think together. However intimate they are, man and woman, friends, to think together about something.

Here is a crisis we are facing. Not merely political, economic crisis, but much deeper crisis, the crisis in our consciousness, the crisis in our minds. And can we, you and the speaker, think about that together? That is, you give up your conclusion, your position, your beliefs, your personal psychological commitments, and the speaker does it, so that both of us meet, so as to think together whether it is possible to resolve this conflict.

You understand my question?"

- Krishnamurti in a talk - (over 25 years ago)

(( In establishing the many schools he founded in India, England, and the United States, Krishnamurti envisioned that education should emphasize the integral cultivation of the mind and the heart, not mere academic intelligence. Krishnamurti said, "Surely a school is a place where one learns about the totality, the wholeness of life. Academic excellence is absolutely necessary, but a school includes much more than that. It is a place where both the teacher and the taught explore not only the outer world, the world of knowledge, but also their own thinking, their behavior." From this they begin to discover their own conditioning and how it distorts their thinking. Freedom from conditioning and its misery begins with this awareness. For decades he engaged in dialogues with teachers and students to emphasize the understanding that it is only in such freedom that true learning can take place. ))

My job is to form a safe place for intelligent cooperation. St.Clair